and then my world started spinning again

with my last post, i mentioned turning the page. sometimes we do it to move on, to keep going or to forget. but remember it’s okay to reread pages-to gain a new understanding of what is yet to come. it’s okay to start over, start fresh and with a new comprehension between two souls.

it doesn’t need to make sense to anyone except the ones reading, living and experiencing such.

one of the biggest turning points in my life was when i thought i lost who i was. one of the greatest lessons i learned was to never give up on who i wanted to be. this goes into effect with the rest of the words to follow.

with the crack in my spirit, i have prayed for healing. i looked for every sign i could that made me feel the presence of my mom, begging for clarity. it took patience and moments of fear that felt heavier than a ton of bricks on my chest, but it happened. i didn’t realize, until today, it meant going back and pressing restart. replay it-your story, reread it, to hear the words aloud and see a clearer outcome. i do this, i did this, to rekindle the spirit i had behind a cloud. i realize now she was there the whole time, waiting for today.

i’ll forever remember the relief in my heart, soul and spirit when i knew i was truly enough the whole time. more importantly, my world was back.

the first embrace was the initial reminder that i never want to let go again, and he wanted to be back. i never want to say goodbye again.

the beautiful glow looking into his eyes filled my soul with intense and growing compassion, for i felt the pain he experienced as much as my own. i promise you’ll never be alone.

remember that the sun comes back out. things begin to make more sense, and the anxieties of the past dissipate into the air which now flows freshly into my lungs.

don’t let the lives of others influence that of your own. feelings matter the most to the one experiencing them, and you’re the most important.

all for now mi amore,


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just a girl who lives on sarcasm, compassion and emotions. trying to make my way into the life I've always dreamed of. Writing through travels in van life and travel nursing from coast to coast. Mental wellness advocator, creative writer, nomad and travel nurse here. :)

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