more times than not, i ponder my next blog idea. i have so many things i want to write about that directly relate to my daily life, however-i value my found privacy and want to maintain that.
with that being said, i have established efficiency in my writings. i’m happy to be able to share my story and also hold onto the details where they matter most-my heart.
this month has both flown by, and dragged simultaneously. with a rocky first couple of weeks, and adapting to class again-it feels things are shifting back into place.
i have a lot to look forward too. i have a lot of love around me. i’ll never discredit the amazing support from my friends, coworkers and family as well. i’m waiting on my next opportunity to make another dream reality. initiation has occurred, only thing in my way is time. i wouldn’t speed it up even if i had the power, because the interim period is teaching me patience, and also giving me time for mental preparation for the possible change coming my way.
earlier this year i gave myself a boundary with my fears. fear is inevitable, so how do you face it?
for five seconds, i allow my anxieties and insecurities to reach out in my mind, and then i take a breath in, and let all of the negativity out in exhale.
that coping skill has gotten me through many situations that previously ignited panic. i’m proud to be able to reflect on this growth, because there was a point where i never knew i’d truly make it this far.
i often thank myself, for my perseverance. when i open a new blog, all i can begin thinking about is how far i’ve come to become this me. the tears i shed fighting for the most basics of decency, the yells of desperation and the lack of respect i dealt with because i thought it was the life i deserved. i went through it, but it lead me here. and there’s nothing else i’ve ever wanted more-than what i have right now, well-maybe a little more but there’s no rush.
the only advice i can truly give is to never give up on yourself. if you’re constantly worried, dependent, or feeling physically ill-try to change your environment. reach out to a friend, find some value in religion or spirituality, what ever you do-just keep going. if you’re on edge, panicking and isolating-listen to your intuition and find the source of the problem. what is your body trying to tell you?
life will settle into place when you need it, not when you want it. the person in which you are meant for, will be there when you are ready. whether you know that person yet or not, continue to be your best, true self.
practice affirmations, exercise, eat good food and enjoy your moments. adhere to your quirks, and love them! be your authentic self, and be gentle with her.
for our purpose matters, always
all for now mi amore