a letter

I’ve been meaning to write you. The timing just wasn’t right, until now.

June 25, 2021

dear future husband,

I can’t wait to embrace you with my ever-so-tender love. I dream of the moments you hold me in your arms, where I actually am safe forever.

I can’t wait to meet you. I have waited so so long and endured horrendous heartache to find you. I learned a lot on the way. I am here to warn you, I am overwhelming. I feel heavy and intently and carry passion and fight for those I love. I am so much, or so little. Sometimes it gets really dark in my head, and I’ll really need your help to stay above the darkness. I promise though, it will be worth it. I know I am worth it. We will create the most extraordinary life together. I will love you with my entire soul, and through every reality I will and do seek you.

I can’t wait for the days of our progression. Yah know, milestones. I didn’t quite have positive celebrations growing up and I can’t wait to have that with you. You’ll be so proud of the things I’m about to start doing, I can’t wait to tell you about it! I wonder where along the journey I will meet you. I know right now I am making myself the priority, because I am learning and evolving each and every day. I am processing emotions and grief and need some time to work it all out before I can be the best for me, and you. But I will create a scrapbook, and only hope to put you in it one day, and reflect on that moment years down the road.

I dream of us building together. A foundation of trust, respect and effort. A conscious and consistent, everlasting and unconditional type of love. I see us with a family, one with traditions and closeness and backyard bbq’s. I see laughter, communication, support and quality between us. I see the same fire I emit as my love for you, in your reflection too. For this is when I will know it is you, my charming delicate man.

For now, I must suspend this letter, as its remains contain information only known to the writer, and must be unwritten at this time.

Perhaps there is more to unwind here, but for now this is all

please don’t ever neglect the true meaning of love. it holds tremendous power and passion, a force to never manipulate.

stay kind mi amore,


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just a girl who lives on sarcasm, compassion and emotions. trying to make my way into the life I've always dreamed of. Writing through travels in van life and travel nursing from coast to coast. Mental wellness advocator, creative writer, nomad and travel nurse here. :)

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