time for another update in the life of bree
In the last week I have had to say goodbyes to my coworkers and family at St Joes, the ones that have been around me the last seven fucking years. I really had a difficult day last Friday, doing the “lasts” at the hospital, and it was emotional for me. I also had to say my goodbyes to the last patient I truly bonded with. Her transition into the angelic world is near, and I am thankful to have been able to at least have said my goodbyes to her before she reached Heaven.
As far as work went, my friends and colleges were extremely supportive. I anticipated much more shit from people, and I’m glad nobody said anything to my face. I didn’t want to have to prove to them why I was choosing myself, I didn’t have too. It’s bittersweet though, I know all my friends are there and supportive but I just want someone to express their sadness for my new journey. I want to be missed, that’s forsure. Of course I do, we all yearn to be wanted and missed and loved somehow.
I have started more of my van conversion, adding floors and walls. Its finally coming together and its sooooo surreal to see in real life, the vision I had in my head. I’m proud to be able to do this. I am proud of me. I am thankful so much for the help I’ve received from new friends and from family with the build and power tool logistics. I am so thankful for the opportunity to accomplish this. With the pandemic, I really felt trapped, as most of us did. Traveling was always going to make it into my story and I’m glad its finally here.
I have been also keeping up on my schoolwork, as I am almost done with my BSN RN degree. I’ve had my associates for two years and took some time off before COVID-19 hit to take a break from school. I’m so happy to be so close to my ultimate finish line! I know this isn’t it though, I am going to be getting my masters. I just am not sure exactly where or what I want it to be focused on. I’d say my career goals have adapted considering I just got the two highest dream job’s imaginable to me in this year alone. I have no idea what my endeavors hold. That’s okay. I want to pursue my travel journey for a few years, see where the road turns.
My romantic life has been finally placed on the back burner. Although I am on a site for app promotion, I really am not interested in romance. I usually can’t say that confidently, but I am now. I’ve finally realized how to focus on myself, how to love myself, before I can truly love my spouse. I am dedicated to loving me- now and always. It would be very cool though if my future husband just so happened to be one of the future men I write about here. It would be the upmost adorable story and blog to follow.
At first, I glanced away hoping he wasn’t tracking my embarrassed smile. (fast forward to many months later) …and that’s how we fell in love. a blog series. Anyways, for now its going to be about the one and only here.
My personal goals are indeed conquering. I have done so much work in such a little amount of time, I am so proud. I have maintained a great attitude, kept up on all my responsibilities, added a ton more of workload to my days, and continued to be great and authentic. I honestly am so badass.
I’ve got some personal time off before I leave and begin my journey. I say “see yah later” to my family this weekend, my friends and acquaintances I’ve met along the way. On the way and upon my arrival, I get to say hello to so many more people, I get to see so many beautiful sights that I haven’t ever experienced before, and I get to be 100% myself. I get to learn my silent thoughts, my mid day dreams, my fears and inspirations. I get to love me. I will learn and adapt and grow tremendously in the first month, to every single day after. I am so very excited for this. I can’t believe I’m this girl, I always saw her on the inside but never knew she’d come out and truly life and experience life for its offerings. Shit man.
T minus 6 days
alright mi amore