what’s the breeze

hello all

time for another update in the life of bree

In the last week I have had to say goodbyes to my coworkers and family at St Joes, the ones that have been around me the last seven fucking years. I really had a difficult day last Friday, doing the “lasts” at the hospital, and it was emotional for me. I also had to say my goodbyes to the last patient I truly bonded with. Her transition into the angelic world is near, and I am thankful to have been able to at least have said my goodbyes to her before she reached Heaven.

As far as work went, my friends and colleges were extremely supportive. I anticipated much more shit from people, and I’m glad nobody said anything to my face. I didn’t want to have to prove to them why I was choosing myself, I didn’t have too. It’s bittersweet though, I know all my friends are there and supportive but I just want someone to express their sadness for my new journey. I want to be missed, that’s forsure. Of course I do, we all yearn to be wanted and missed and loved somehow.

I have started more of my van conversion, adding floors and walls. Its finally coming together and its sooooo surreal to see in real life, the vision I had in my head. I’m proud to be able to do this. I am proud of me. I am thankful so much for the help I’ve received from new friends and from family with the build and power tool logistics. I am so thankful for the opportunity to accomplish this. With the pandemic, I really felt trapped, as most of us did. Traveling was always going to make it into my story and I’m glad its finally here.

I have been also keeping up on my schoolwork, as I am almost done with my BSN RN degree. I’ve had my associates for two years and took some time off before COVID-19 hit to take a break from school. I’m so happy to be so close to my ultimate finish line! I know this isn’t it though, I am going to be getting my masters. I just am not sure exactly where or what I want it to be focused on. I’d say my career goals have adapted considering I just got the two highest dream job’s imaginable to me in this year alone. I have no idea what my endeavors hold. That’s okay. I want to pursue my travel journey for a few years, see where the road turns.

My romantic life has been finally placed on the back burner. Although I am on a site for app promotion, I really am not interested in romance. I usually can’t say that confidently, but I am now. I’ve finally realized how to focus on myself, how to love myself, before I can truly love my spouse. I am dedicated to loving me- now and always. It would be very cool though if my future husband just so happened to be one of the future men I write about here. It would be the upmost adorable story and blog to follow.

At first, I glanced away hoping he wasn’t tracking my embarrassed smile. (fast forward to many months later) …and that’s how we fell in love. a blog series. Anyways, for now its going to be about the one and only here.

My personal goals are indeed conquering. I have done so much work in such a little amount of time, I am so proud. I have maintained a great attitude, kept up on all my responsibilities, added a ton more of workload to my days, and continued to be great and authentic. I honestly am so badass.

I’ve got some personal time off before I leave and begin my journey. I say “see yah later” to my family this weekend, my friends and acquaintances I’ve met along the way. On the way and upon my arrival, I get to say hello to so many more people, I get to see so many beautiful sights that I haven’t ever experienced before, and I get to be 100% myself. I get to learn my silent thoughts, my mid day dreams, my fears and inspirations. I get to love me. I will learn and adapt and grow tremendously in the first month, to every single day after. I am so very excited for this. I can’t believe I’m this girl, I always saw her on the inside but never knew she’d come out and truly life and experience life for its offerings. Shit man.

T minus 6 days

alright mi amore

xox

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Bree

just a girl who lives on sarcasm, compassion and emotions. trying to make my way into the life I've always dreamed of. Writing through travels in van life and travel nursing from coast to coast. Mental wellness advocator, creative writer, nomad and travel nurse here. :)

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