I’ve lived in my van a tad over two weeks now. let me fucking tell you, the growth I’ve overcome in the last week has reached another high!
I have struggled letting myself be free from my previous attachments. once I, as my dad would say, “jumped out of a perfectly good airplane”, I was able to release that person forever. I am so thankful for that. I was holding on to a lot of pain for no reason worthy. I have reached new heights, emotionally and physically.
I am learning how to listen to my inner self. I can finally see her, she’s been hiding a very long time. I think everyone should sit and find theirs too. I learned what its like to sit in silence and watch her moves, watch her cries, and hear the cracks in her voice from being silent so long.
Camping really does get pretty boring. I haven’t learned how to be an avid reader, but I suppose that will happen when I solo camp. Right now I’m lucky and have a friend to company me sometimes. I have a membership to a gym as well, but lets say I haven’t felt bored enough to go there either. haha. I love to cook, that’s one of my favorite parts of being at a campsite. I get to be literally OUTSIDE all the time.
I do need to find a generator, little fridge and ac/heat source. this is not working well with none of the above. I just get very very hot and borderline sun poisoning. Which is not something I want to deal with here. With my plans to go further south as the summer progresses, I need to prioritize this need.
My goals are still extraordinary. I hope to continue to be the greatest version of me I can, to spread kindness across and to make people laugh and smile. I see memories of me this time last year and I was crying hysterically over the life and feelings I was overwhelmed by. I can report, that is no longer. I am finally better. I am finally me. I was suppose to begin work but it was delayed until tomorrow! I am super ecstatic to start this journey!!!!
all for now