I’ve been quite the busy bee lately, it’s time for an update.
Aside from not coping well with my brothers death, (well not at all actually), and working strenuous weeks, I’m tired. I am tired but I am well.
I am proud to announce (to whoever ends up here) that I finished my BSN-RN and am now a proud holder of my Bachelor’s in Nursing. I am disheartened at the fact that I’m done with school again. This time is different. When I finished my surgical technology program, I knew I was going back for my RN. When I finished my RN associates. I knew I’d be back for my BSN. This time, I’m done. I will pursue my masters degree and eventually become a case manager, but until then-It’s my time. It’s time for me to learn who Bree is, without the business of full time work and school. To be honest, I’m not sure how I managed to complete all I’ve done while managing work and mental health and friends, family and relationships at large. I’m a fucking star. It’s time for me to expand my busy work attitude and self into something new, exciting and full of new opportunities.
I hear a lot of people saying “I don’t know how you do it”, fuck, I surely don’t either. I just do. I managed my depression and remained functional through severe episodes for years, until it took me into an ER each time. I managed my traumas until they backfired and turned into rage and a new panic disorder. I managed my symptoms until they were dealt with, until they turned into lessons. Until they helped me grow. I managed me.
I have been blessed with the opportunity to make so many friends here in Virginia, but my time here is nearing an end. I am so thankful for the ones who ensured my safety, invited me out, fed me and helped me keep access to running water and electricity. It would have been much more challenging without y’all, so thank you from the bottom of my heart. My next adventure is going to be North Carolina. I so thankfully inspired a friend from Michigan who is going to be coming down as well for her first assignment! I can’t wait to have a buddy from home nearby. I still plan on making myself my own spot by camping and know that’s what is best for me, but having someone from my original town is going to feel amazing. I am so thankful to be such a positive influence on people, as that is what my journey is about! Not only am I inspiring myself by pursuing all my dreams, but I am influencing others and speaking up for those who hold voices quieter than mine.
I haven’t spoken much about mental health and coping, so the following blog will be inclusive of that. What I can touch on now is a project I just started.
A Book by Bree.
I am going to be writing a memoir, to share the wonderful wisdom I’ve learned from life thus far. My struggle, trauma and personal business out for anyone to read. I hope to continue to inspire others to be their true most authentic self, I hope to help people chase the dreams they didn’t think they could pursue and I want to ultimately guide your mental wellness into the most positive it can be. After all, we all deserve happiness on Earth.
I am so thankful for my time on this Earth being one full of positivity, inspiration and hard working success. I am well determined to ensure the life I life is that to be so proud of, one to make an impact on thousands of people. If I can change one perspective, make someone’s bad day less bad, or remind people why they belong on this planet, I’ve done my diligence.
Ollie has been doing wonderful despite me accidently tearing off a piece from the bottom of the side panel. Idk what it’s called, but its easily fixable. I just need the time to meet a friend so he can fix it. I would like to add a ladder, but with the cold front coming, I’m sure I will delay that until spring.
My financial goals are to first pay off my van. I haven’t had it more than four months but it’s the highest accruing loan I have. After that, I will need four-six months to save money to pay off my student loan debt entirely.
All for now,
with all else, love more